sometimes

sometimes...im so amazed by my innate ability to screw my life up.

i was supposed to go sh. decided nt to go. but din had the guts to cancel leave...and had to go over at 6pm (when offical knock off is 5.30) to my boss to admit tat i needa cancel leave coz i have too much work to do and tat i cant be on leave on mon.

stayed till 7.45, went for dinner n then..THEN..AND THEN...i realised i forgot to send out this SUPER impt email at 3pm. so i had to rush back to the office tdy to do it. drop bag, on com, click send and breeze out. like..wtf! quite pissed with myself. if i had stopped for a min to think ytd..i wld have sent it out and wldnt have to go back tdy just to send an email. :(

but just when i was busy castigating myself on the way out of the building..i ran into chulei..shes going back to work. WORK. wow. and its like..she has to do it coz of the call centre. im really just so amazed. doing public queries during weekdays smth drives me crazy coz all that im doing is to copy whatever i had sent, but..doing customisation. these customisation sometimes is irritating. but im really glad i do email queries. at least..there is no sob stories, i dun have to get the direct impact of ple's wrath. (i know how bad ple can b to call centre ple. trust me.) and theres yangleng to help me out with the queries too. its like..i have 2 safety net. YL and CH. haa! but for chulei..i dont think so. whatever she says will be held against her. ple wld use it. in such times, i believe everyone will be very irritated, agitated, worried..this hotpot of emotions is likely to drive any1 crazy and even 'better', ruin a perfectly fine day. a saturday.

and this is when i realised..im too pessimistic. too quick to jump to conclusion. just merely thinking that my life sux and is super screwed up, when in actual fact..i shld b glad tat im nt roped into the call centre and not having to work on sats.

or maybe its coz of the conversation ytd. maybe i really am a sadist. maybe i just like to screw my life. maybe.